Is there a way to be ok???

I keep realizing that I'm a relativly crappy person to hang around. I'm boring,usually have few things to talk about,few important things to talk about,and i constantly keep annoying several people in just the way I am,and it's troublesome I feel distanced from people including those i care about and all i want is to be what everybody wants, but I can't. Unfortunatly I don't know enough about myself to always have opinions on things or opinions I'm willing to share and there's certain things that mean more than my life to me so I can't bear the pain of thinking I'll fail it hurts and constantly reminds me I can't be perfect to anyone. Anyway I'm sorry to all those I cause grief to help me to be ok if you can. I love all my friends and I love you Taylor and always will.

P.S. The reason I won't let anyone post comments is this is just some stupid rant about how I'm feeling now and I'm honesstly afraid of what people might say.