Wednesday, December 10, 2008
You ever get that strange feeling that...
Nobody ever understands you at all. Well, thats exactly how I feel right now. I feel so lonely on the inside. Its a horrible pain. I don't believe anyone I know could begin to comprehend why or how much I hurt. Everybody is so damn lucky. With my life causing me problems latley I have no one absolutley no one to fall back on for help. Everytime I try to explain no one understands. I want life to have times of happieness but latley I've been struggling to find a reason to be happy. I don't expect anyone to truly care about my feelings but please nobody treat me like shit. I can't handle anything now I'm fragile right now (I know I lost all hopes at regaining any of my masculinity). Anyways I have more complaints but i don't want to ruin my chances of people liking me somewhat.
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Hey Tim,
I don't think that you're the only one to feel that way. The whole "Nobody understands me" thing is kinda the thing every teenager says. The thing is, it's hard to explain exactly why you're feeling the way you do, so it's hard for people to understand. The first part of having someone else understand is to completely undrstand it yourself...
And trust me, I know the pain. Probably not as bad, but remember, you're talking to the girl who barely spoke a word all through elementry and part of middle school... I don't think that I had any real friends for me to talk to until around mid-seventh or eigth... I was the kid who sat around and did nothing during recess with just herself and her stories, you know.
Sorry for going off about myself there. This is about you. I'm just trying to help you understand that you're not completely alone. And you do have friends. If you need someone to talk to, my ears are open. I'll do my best to try and understand.
And people don't mean to treat you like shit Tim. People like you. I mean, you even have a fan club! Most people aren't loved enough to have one of those. You're just easy to tease. And of course you have masculinity. I mean, I saw you working hard out there on the farm this summer. You're just more in touch with your feminine side than most guys, which is a great thing to have. Girls are always looking for someone who can really understand them, and because of that, it's easier for you to than other guys. Being sensitive in no way makes you girly. It just shows that you care.
Also, if you have complaints, you should voice them to at least someone. It really helps to relieve stress. And I think people would still like you no matter what you said. (I know your fanclub would!)
As for being happy, there are sometimes when you just can't. But I really think that it's a thing of choice. You can choose to be happy, just by making something to be happy about. I know that it's impossible sometimes, but it's worth a shot usually.
But anyway, please just remember that even if it seems like it'll never get better, time can heal all wounds. It always gets better eventually, K? And remember, we are here for you, okay?
~Laura
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